November 7, 2011

Yeah, I dislike a lot of people and things.

My childhood was weird, I wasn't a social girl at all, I lived in my own fair dreamland, my friends were all pretty much imaginary and I was always labeled as the weird one, I was the one nobody wanted in their team, the one nobody wanted to be paired with, because I was so weeeeeiiiiirrrddd and not cool! Since then I was attracted more by the boys' social behaviour than the girls'. The girls were all bitchy and they loved to cluster, like, united we stand, divided we fail. I hated to cluster. I never got why girls and boys couldn't group together, why they had to be two different marshallings. The point is, I hated being with the girls. They cared about boring stuff, clothing, boys, gossip and crap.
Now I'm almost 25 and I still feel bad when girls cluster, segregating me or leaving me out without a reason. How many times I've been told "Can you leave us alone?" "You're not invited" and crap like this. Why are children so stupid? And WHY are there adults who behave the same way? You know, sometimes you meet these girls who never stopped being children and they want to relive their glorious childhood. Sometimes you meet this ignorant, sometimes catholic, bigoted women and you want to slap their faces and tear their uselessly huge egos into pieces.
Then I look at me and I see a girl whose qualities and flaws concur. It just depends on the perspective, you know? People tells me "you're a bitch and that's not good" and then "about you I like that you're a bitch". So, what shall I do? I keep on being a bitch and fuck off everyone who thinks I should be a nice, catholic, polite, fussy and classy little cute girl.

And yes, I'm a Tori Amos fangirl, live with it.