October 3, 2011

Society Isolates

When I was living in my hometown I knew a lot of people, but they didn't like me because I was weird and I never used to hang out with the people I knew there, if not randomly. The only friend I had outside the school walls was this sweet girl I still love a lot, so we used to meet every saturday (because we didn't live very close, considering we were teenagers and didn't have cars) and that was fun. I think she's the only person I'm still in contact with from there.
Now I moved far away from home. I have a lot of good friends all around the country but because of the great distance we can't see each other too often. It happened I didn't had occasions to meet some of my dear friends for more than two years, some of them I see only once or twice a year.
Here where I live there's some nice people and I like to hang out with them, but I still feel like I'm the foreigner, because you feel like that when you know nobody but three people in a whole city. I'm beginning to know people, but knowing them won't make me feel like I have people I can count on.
Sometimes I feel I really want people to like me, maybe sometimes I try too hard, sometimes I don't try at all to be likeable. I don't want to sacrifice myself to collect some company, still I happen to feel alone and lost. I love the place where I live, I really do, and I really want to be part of it. That's why it frustrates me so much that I still feel like a stranger.
At the end of the day, we are all social animals.



All we find reject our mind, don't you wonder why?

If the war by heavens gate released desire, in the line of fire someone must have known that a human heart demands to be admired, cause in the center of the universe we are all alone.

I have a tale to be told, won't you listen tonight?