Things are working now, they're moving on, something's happening. But. But but but. But some issues are standing still there where they appeared, no steps forward. I'm starting to think that I'm behaving like a perfect asshole. But then I think that, hey, I've hurted back who hurted me, did I have the right to do so? I think I did, but somethimes I think I'm dragging it way too far. Maybe I'm just a bitter bitch. It's weird to find yourself still angry about something after YEARS, especially when you were convinced you did forgive everyone. You feel so good, such a nice persone and then here it is, your anger is still there as fresh as before. Sometimes you just need to accept you're a vengeful and proud bitch, and that you'd rather never talk again to your friends than forgive them. My fear is to be hurted again by them, I gave them at least one chance, sometimes two, to forget what happened, but no, they can't live without giving me for granted, without thinking of me as some accessory that will always be there. I will not. When I think "I know that person comes to me only when that thing happens" and the day after that person comes to me telling me that thing happened, I think I'm entitled to believe I wasn't being overly cyinical. When somebody ignores me, mistreats me to look badass to someone else, they better remember that I'm nobody's sidekick, therefore they can go fuck themselves.
Oh, and work, I'm working on a few projects. Always the same, though :P Nothing's done yet.
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