Could this be fixed with Mary Jane?

Yeah several people suggested me to try some weed instead of taking xanax but hey, you know...

Anyway, I don't like some things while I like others, like everybody. And you happen to dislike some things stronger when your body screams you "HEY GAL THIS ISN'T GOOD", in those moments when your brain can't stand any kind of sound. And yes then there is this kind of claustrophoby that rises when a little problem comes out suddenly, and it makes you feel like you're choking, but you're not because you're breathing, so you don't understand what you have to do, do you have to breathe less or breathe more? So you sit and cry in panic even if it's all ok, there's just a shitty little irrelevant problem you have to deal with and you can't. It's really like choking, you want to go outside, you want to think about something else but you can't, it's late and it's dark and no, tomorrow we have to work.

I miss the air, I miss the brambles, I miss the physalis, I miss the earth, I can barely remember how does it feel at touch. I miss the me who used to daydream all the time.

How far is March?

La Mercante di Luce

She's done :) My beloved optic has her first official portrait!

Here's 'She Tames The Light' on other websites:

Deviant Art

GfxArtist

And here's a bigger version for detail lovers!

She Tames The Light full

Enjoy! C&C always welcomed, of course!

The optic

I can't say I'm working fast on this, but when it comes to drawing there's no need to hurry. Hurry is bad. You need to leave the picture rest. You need to leave it aside for days, weeks, because then you'll take it again and you'll find all the mistakes. That's because it takes so much to make a single, stupid, fucking and simple illustration. Because I'm slow, lazy, and because the pic needs to be washed away from my brain before I go back to work on it. To perceive the real picture.

I must admit I'm so horribly lazy, I never had the patience to sit down and draw a decent background, a car, a house, some shitty perspective. No I kept on drawing cartoonish girl faces, boobies, idiotic expressions and scarves. Fuck me.

Anyway, I think I'll finish this before 2012.

Click HERE to see fullsize version, thankee :)

2011 with good intents

Yeah, I've made a list of things I want me to do during next year, like "do stretching all the mornings" "wake up earlier" "study piano" "draw comics you fucking lazy self-pitiful whore" "read books you lazy mp3 player sucker" "be a good housekeeper" "eat healthy" "DO WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT". I've stretched a tread over my desk where I'll hang pictures and drawings, I've sticked a Sailoor Moon poster to the wall and Ive reorganized my "work station". This morning I woke up 15 minutes earlier to do some gym and to drink a tea with some bicuits. I've lost the habit to have a breakfast, but I love breakfast. I think that if I don't give up within 2 days as usual, I'm going in the right direction to get myself back.