My evolution!

Nuns, random stuff

TrueFantasy: Intervista ad Alessio Banini

TrueFantasy: Intervista ad Alessio Banini: "Un saluto a tutti gli amici lettori di TrueFantasy! Oggi la nostra cara Giordana Gradara ha intervistato per noi l’autore dei romanzi “Raz..."

I am my enemy

Self indulgence is an artist's worst enemy. Laziness is another one. I could keep on calling it "lack of inspiration", but if I would I'd be able to find it. I'm just too lazy to sit down and concentrate on the lines. I let myself getting frustrated too fast, my power of will is weak as a dead hamster.

I really need to learn again how to hold a pencil and draw, how to mess around with watercolours.

Why did I stop drawing comics, back in 2001 (or whatever year it was)? The idea that I needed to go "professional" sticked in my mind and never left. I begun to care way too much about the technical side of comics, I listened too much to those voices who were telling me that "in Italy there is no way one can became a comic writer, just forget about it, it's a pipe dream". And I was shocked! I was like "wait...what? Why am I doing this stuff if I can't live on it? They're my life and you're telling me I can't live off of them?". And this thing got me really depressed, I couldn't accept the fact that nobody would've read my stories. I forgot that is was FUN to

draw comics, I was really living in that world, I loved my characters...but I did something wrong at a certain point, I though my comics HAD to be inked to be considered comics and not amateurish shit. Then I realized I hate inking, my drawings look bad after they're inked. This got me depressed even more, and in the meanwhile I tried to get rid of the "manga" look, trying to add details and stuff. This bored me. I don't know why I couldn't just go along with my simple, cartoonish style. Now I'm so frustrated that I'm not able to draw 'consequential' illustrations anymore. Just, I can't draw the same face twice, side by side. I'm out of training.

I'm still trying to force myself to bring back my skill, so that I can draw shitty, funny comics again.

Ill days

I'm feeling pretty bad since thursday evening, I must have eaten something bad. I'm feeling quite nauseated since then, a little stomachache, light fever, shivers...fuck. I had to skip a reharsal for the concert and a trip to Siena, and I'm really not feeling like doing anything but sitting at the pc or talking (complaining). I'm not even feeling hugry even if these days I haven't been eating quite at all.

Yesterday I was feeling a bit better so I went out and bought some flowers for my terrace. Got some geraniums :) Next time I'll go for a couple of mesembryanthemum and then maybe a couple hydrangeas for the shady spots. I love flowers :D

Uhm, I'm planning a lot of travels to do in the future but I'm not sure I'll have the money to afford them, so I decided I'll look for some random barmaid work during the summer. You know, Tuscany, tourists = work at restaurants/bars. Then, in June I'll probably go back for a few days to work in Siena at the bar :)

Oh I'm really feeling like shit.